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May. 1st, 2025 at 7:48 AM
[ private to Iago ]
Iago,
I don't have much to say here. If I've disappeared, it seems that at least for the time being, our work together is at an end. If I can request anything, it's that you keep the dedication to writing your own story, to making your own life that you'll be proud for others to know about and not just because you were effective. And I'm going to hope that you find someone who really will put you first, always. Someone who appreciates you for all that you are. And you and I both know that the Cat King, as he is now, is not that person. I hope he grows into that person. But my concern here is you, okay?
You can do this. You will do it. I know you can and you'll find a reason why you want to.
See you around,
Saga
[ private to Sheehan ]
Lester,
Business out of the way first: I'll make this offer to Arthur too, but I'm making it to you as well. If, for whatever reason, Arthur's universe isn't an option, you and he and anyone else he feels like bringing along are 100% welcome in my world. We'll figure out the niceties, but you're never without that option, okay?
Second, I left the paperwork for the Art Gazebo in my desk on the left hand side, second drawer. Full inventory, general restock notes, budget expectations, you name it.
More importantly, though, I just want to say that you're going to see me again, okay? I'm probably going to be busy back at home for a bit, working things out, but if there's one thing I got to learn while I was there, it's that.
Of course I'm leaving it last, but... your friendship has been one of the most important things in keeping me in a good place while I was on that boat. I'm going to miss you, at least until I see you again. Thank you for everything. Especially that coffee.
Much love and best wishes,
Saga
[ private to Jacob ]
Hey,
If you're reading this, I disappeared off the ship. I'm fine. Just so that we're clear. And I didn't have anything I needed the way most wardens need things. Honestly, the time on board gave me a lot of what I'm going to need moving forward.
Don't worry about me.
Scritch Mae for me, for one. And if you need a dog sitter, Jesse would probably be great. She's going to be my boss when she gets back. If not Jesse, Aerith.
Most important: if you need a place for you and your two friends, my world is always an option. Not just an option: welcome. We'll figure out paperwork and everything else, but we're clear of zombies and there's enough vampires on board, I'm sure one of them can teach Astarion how to handle it in a modern city. But even if you choose elsewhere, this is not the last you're seeing of me.
Once you're off the Barge, I'm coming to visit. Count on it.
Love you,
Saga
[ private to Jesse ]
Jesse,
Or should I say 'Director Faden'? First off, I want to thank you for that job offer. Everything that happened in Bright Falls did a number on my understanding of the world, and the Barge only opened the doors further.
Second, I want to thank you for helping me come to terms with being a parautilitarian. In a very real sense, you helped me find wonder in this thing that's been half a secret and half a worry I'm delusional for most of my life. That first conversation we had is something I'll always treasure.
Same with our girl's nights and having you at my back. I couldn't have asked for better support.
Sorry if this is short; I just know I'm going to see you again. But if you could look out for Iago while he adjusts to me disappearing? I'd appreciate that.
...keep in mind that he's going to lie like he breathes.
Until later,
Anderson
[ private to Arthur ]
Lester,
Business first: do not stop working on your case, on your situation, while you're here. Do not let this place fill your head so much that you aren't trying to figure out what's going on and what you're mixed up in. I know in my gut that everything is not as it seems. I wish I could tell you more but I just don't have enough pieces. Maybe I'll see what I can find off Barge; there's enough similarities I've noticed that I think it might be a worthwhile venture.
Other business: if for whatever reason you and Sheehan need a place to go that isn't your world, you'll be welcome in mine. I'll help you get set up, straighten out your paperwork with the FBC, and you can bring anyone you need to; I'll go get them myself if I have to. And if you or anyone else gets stuck somewhere, anywhere, I will come for you. Understand?
If I find out you didn't call when you were in a bind, I'm going to kick your ass.
Now to the squishy bits:
My time on the Barge would not have been what it was without you. It's been my highest honor to help you through the dark, and while the deal was nice, the friend I made of you through it was even better. I know you have doubts, because you're smart and you care so fucking much that you're never going to be happy with how well you're doing. It's always going to feel like you could do better.
You're human. And you're doing your best. And your best is pretty damn good, if I say so myself.
Also look into getting a timer for yourself, maybe on a watch so that it's always on you. It'll keep you from succumbing to time blindness when you get into something. That's not a moral failing, Arthur, it's a thing that some people have. And it's easily fixed. Ask Sheehan about it.
If I get to call this place while I'm out, you're meeting my daughter. That's non-negotiable. Either way, though, you'll see me again. And I'm looking forward to it.
Saga
[ private to Shaw ]
Hey,
Thanks for everything. Feel free to come visit, you and the wife, whenever you've got a minute. Sorry I didn't get to say goodbye properly but I couldn't have done it without you. Take care.
Anderson
PS. If you could keep an eye on Iago? He's going to be upset and that means he's going to cause trouble. Sorry to give you more work. Keep in mind he lies like he breathes.
[ private to Aerith ]
Hey girl,
First off: I'm gonna miss you.
Second off: you're going to get paired soon. I know it. You're so good with people, and you're so good for so many people. I bet the Admiral is just spoiled for choice with you. And that doesn't discount the great work you're doing for a lot of people in the meantime.
I know you've kept my spirit up when it would have been easy to feel a little hopeless or frustrated, so when I say that, know you're helping out wardens too.
Not going to spend the whole time complimenting you, though. I'm going to miss you, and I can't wait to see you again. Either I'll get back on that boat or you'll be somewhere I can find you, but regardless: you'll see me again. So it's not goodbye, it's good luck until later.
Saga
PS If you can keep an eye on Iago, I'd much appreciate it. You know how full of shit he can be. And he's going to be upset that I'm gone.
[ private to Sokie ]
Hey hot stuff,
Come visit when you two get all your shit figured out. Or I'll come visit you. Don't give Arthur too hard of a time, eh? He genuinely means the best.
And he'll just give you a harder time back so it's not even practical.
I'll see you when I see you. You haven't seen the last of me.
Saga
[ private to David ]
Hey Henry,
This was definitely the hardest letter to write. I actually wrote a version of this, back before you disappeared and I almost took it out of the stack when you vanished but I kept it on the off chance. You never know, right? When you came back, the first thing I did was sit down to write this.
Well, sit down to stare at the paper for a while.
There's a million things I want to say. I want to tell you that I love you, because I do. I truly and genuinely do love you, and I care about you, and whether you live or die matters a lot to me. Probably more than it should, if I'm going to be professional, but I never thought that the heart was very good at giving a shit about 'professional' lines, or mine isn't. Not in this way.
Maybe it's because of my gift or maybe just because I was looking but you are an amazing person. The time that I got to spend with you, you, Henry Valentine, this sweet man with so much love, such a strong heart that it survived everything they put you through. You're amazing, Henry. You are. And it killed me when you disappeared, when someone like you had that chance to come back taken away from you. I was so angry I almost left, right then and there. Because if this place couldn't hold onto you, didn't give you a second chance, what the hell is any of it for?
But I didn't. And truth is, I'm glad I didn't, if only to make sure that I was here when you came back. If only because I got to know that the place I worked for just over a year could fix it's mistakes. That you'd get your second chance. The deal for you was never my reason for being here, Henry. After we connected? It was all you. All of it.
Because I know it's going to hit you hard when I disappear. I know there's going to be so much anger in you you won't even be able to see and you're going to want to hurt people and hurt yourself and give up. You're going to want to never turn on your ability to feel again because then you'd have to miss me. But I'm going to ask you not to do that, at least not forever. Not all the time. I'm going to be selfish and ask you not to do that so that I'm not the only one missing someone.
And so that when you graduate and you're ready to go, you come to my world and give me a chance to sell you on staying here because I want you here. I want you in my life. I want to have you here to meet my family and be an uncle to my daughter and I want to be a part of that life you make that's worth living.
There is someone waiting for you behind the finish line, Henry. I'm waiting. I know the light is distant, but I'll keep holding it for you until you make it. That's my promise. You have a home, somewhere safe, somewhere you won't be hunted, somewhere you will be loved and accepted.
And if you need to forget that for a little while, that's okay. I know it's going to hurt. But when you're ready, remember it's there for you. Remember that offer is standing. Remember that even in your darkest moments, in your ugliest choices, even in the depths of your blankness, there is someone who loves you and who will not stop loving you, who will hold that pain of missing you in her heart right alongside how much she wants to see you. You have that, even if you can't see it for a little while.
You can do this, Henry. I Know you can.
See you not soon enough,
Saga
[ private to Hanna ]
Hey Hanna,
First off? Don't worry about me. I'm good. Really. And I know you're doing okay. You're a resilient guy. But I want to ask, if you can, look out for David for me. He just got back, which is the best news I've had since he left, but if I disappear, it's going to hit him hard. He's going to need a safe place to be and someone stable to look out for him. You're one of the only people I know who cares about him as much as I do so if you can do that for me? I'd really appreciate it.
I've got other people I've asked to look out for Iago and honestly, you don't need to conflict when it comes to your work with CK. But David is going to need you. I won't get to thank you in person for a while, at least until you're back at home, but until then.
Thanks. You're doing great.
Saga
PS I'll pass on a hello to Alan for you. Promise.
