[ It makes sense when she words it like that. The only thing Saga really lacks at the moment is time--a luxury Alan had a lot of, despite the stakes of his sanity slowly dwindling. ]
Are you sure she has what you have? There might be a chance she doesn't and thinks you're...
[ He trails off, lips pulling into a thin, hard line. ]
...Not right, I guess. How much are you going to tell her?
I'm not sure of anything, honestly. [ A deep breath in. ] But I don't want to lie to her. And I don't want to hide things from her, not if I can help it.
[ She shakes her head. ]
I don't know what I'll be telling her. So maybe once I do, I'll know how much of it she should get. It's a problem for Saga of the Future for right now.
[ Saga can't afford to think of that right now. Has to take the concept and put it neatly onto a shelf in her mind for later, because there's a lot in front of her. An innmate. Self-discovery. Exploration. ]
[ Alan's facial expression is fairly easy to read--a grimace of a smile, tone easy despite the subject matter weighing the conversation down. ]
I'm trying to work on this thing where I don't try to control or predict anyone's future. But I think you know what's best for you. It's your superpower. Along with the Seer stuff, obviously.
[ Learning the difference between conversation and advice and those other things is part of it, Alan. Maybe she's giving you a chance to work on that. ]
I know that Logan will be in a better position if her mom has everything figured out and she can hit the ground running when the clock starts up again. That's all I know on this one.
If there's anything I can do when that time comes, let me know.
[ He's not even sure what. Financial contribution? Saga's got that. He doesn't have kids, doesn't want them, doesn't blame Saga if she doesn't want him near Logan. Hell, he's not even sure he wants to be. But he can offer to listen, he thinks. A slow, slow start. But he's making effort, even if he's not confronting it head on. ]
[ That's surprising. But it does make a lot of sense at the same time. Alan chuckles. There's a moment, here. Saga's made a decision she doesn't take lightly, he thinks. Alan won't either. ]
If it'll up your cred, sure. I'm sure I can swing a set tour through my old haunting grounds.
[ Writer's don't go on set. That's not the point. By him he means Barry. Barry will do it. ]
[ Alan's probably a little more on the dork side than he'd like to admit, although he'd made peace with it in the Dark Place--kind of hard not to feel ridiculous following around a fictional character you made--and he's about to semi-argue for the sake of semi-arguing, old habits from and old life immediately bubbling up before Saga speaks again. His voice softens somewhat. ]
You're probably right. [ Correction: Saga is always right. But Saga also seems like the kind of girl who lives in her job, too. ]
I love my job. But I also know there's a limited number of people who know about, and who can handle the kind of things that happened in Bright Falls. I'm also well aware that Jesse's got... well, a personnel shortage from what happened there too.
The FBC might be a better place for me. But how well is that going to play with David and Logan? I don't know.
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Are you sure she has what you have? There might be a chance she doesn't and thinks you're...
[ He trails off, lips pulling into a thin, hard line. ]
...Not right, I guess. How much are you going to tell her?
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[ She shakes her head. ]
I don't know what I'll be telling her. So maybe once I do, I'll know how much of it she should get. It's a problem for Saga of the Future for right now.
[ I've got enough of my own. ]
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[ Saga can't afford to think of that right now. Has to take the concept and put it neatly onto a shelf in her mind for later, because there's a lot in front of her. An innmate. Self-discovery. Exploration. ]
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...do you think I'm wrong about that? That I should just head back?
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I'm trying to work on this thing where I don't try to control or predict anyone's future. But I think you know what's best for you. It's your superpower. Along with the Seer stuff, obviously.
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I know that Logan will be in a better position if her mom has everything figured out and she can hit the ground running when the clock starts up again. That's all I know on this one.
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[ He stops, jaw flexing slightly. ]
If there's anything I can do when that time comes, let me know.
[ He's not even sure what. Financial contribution? Saga's got that. He doesn't have kids, doesn't want them, doesn't blame Saga if she doesn't want him near Logan. Hell, he's not even sure he wants to be. But he can offer to listen, he thinks. A slow, slow start. But he's making effort, even if he's not confronting it head on. ]
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Logan and David both are big Night Springs fans. I'm sure they'd love to meet you.
Might even make me 'cool' for a few minutes.
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[ That's surprising. But it does make a lot of sense at the same time. Alan chuckles. There's a moment, here. Saga's made a decision she doesn't take lightly, he thinks. Alan won't either. ]
If it'll up your cred, sure. I'm sure I can swing a set tour through my old haunting grounds.
[ Writer's don't go on set. That's not the point. By him he means Barry. Barry will do it. ]
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[ Very very dry humor here, but the little smile on her face says she's thankful. ]
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[ There's surprise in his voice. ]
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[ A beat. ]
I thought I was cool, though.
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[ There's a wry little smile at that. ]
Were you cool?
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Depends. Do you think I'm cool now?
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Absolutely not.
[ She's not surprised when she says it but she is surprised she's saying it- ]
I like you too much to leave you to that kind of fate.
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Nothing says cool like mysterious and brooding, Saga. And there's nothing wrong with being cool, either.
[ A half-nod in her direction. ]
You're pretty cool.
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Nu-uh. When you're 'cool', then you have to worry about being 'uncool'. But if you're a dork, you can just do you. No worries.
I think you could use a little time to just 'do you', not worry too much about 'being' anything but relaxed or happy or amused or... whatever.
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You're probably right. [ Correction: Saga is always right. But Saga also seems like the kind of girl who lives in her job, too. ]
What about you?
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[ She isn't trying to dodge the question, but there are a few ways he might have meant that. She sounds relaxed enough to answer any of them. ]
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But I love my career. It's... one of the things that feels like it's up in the air right now, funny enough. You know. After everything.
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[ Alan's brows raise. ]
What about the FBC?
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[ How do you explain? ]
I love my job. But I also know there's a limited number of people who know about, and who can handle the kind of things that happened in Bright Falls. I'm also well aware that Jesse's got... well, a personnel shortage from what happened there too.
The FBC might be a better place for me. But how well is that going to play with David and Logan? I don't know.
More... stuff to figure out, I guess.
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It's still a government job, right? It's just more suited for you. If anything, it's a transfer with a promotion.