I'd agree with you. But I think in this case, this is a matter of personal accountability: to someone you said you love and someone you called a friend. [ There's nothing in her voice or body language to suggest that she's calling those out specifically in doubt; she's just explaining her reasoning.] He might be an inmate, but I don't believe I have a place when it comes to that. At least not in this discussion.
[ Now for the hard part. ]
The way I see it, from what you, Arthur, and Edwin have said to me, is that both you and Arthur fell prey to the same mistake: you both were unaware of just how much the harm done to someone you love, by someone you love, could make you willing, unconscious or no, to harm someone else you love.
You can call it protection, or 'protectiveness', but I think rationally, honestly, while there are emotional concerns to be dealt with in all corners, Edwin needs as much protection from Arthur as Arthur needs from you. [ Which is to say, none at all. ] Both you and Arthur were trying to cope. And you both were trying to cope by being competent at a thing you feel confident in, instead of being emotionally honest with someone like you should be with family.
[ She doesn't point, because that's rude, but her gaze settles on him a little more distinctly. ]
Objections are 'what you did is unacceptable'. They're words. You 'needed' some sort of retribution. Just like Arthur. You can talk about what you are and what you do and how you work all you like. How it could have been worse this way or that way. Fact is, you both did something stupid and harmful to someone you care about when they thought they could talk to you safely even though they'd fucked up.
[ She folds her arms. ]
And I'd like you to tell him that so that he doesn't decide that his own judgment can never be trusted again instead of realizing this whole thing is a mess and no one was on their best game.
[He listens, steadily. He doesn't grit his teeth, doesn't go stiff and defensive. There's no sign, on the outside, that he's just a little less present as she goes on.
He hears her out, as much as she wants to say, despite her insisting at the top that it isn't about Arthur being an inmate at all, like Jedao came to her because he just missed his psych team so much.
It doesn't matter. He's not here to litigate or exonerate anything. She's made her request. It's just that she's also made a few rather forced parallels, and he actually doesn't want to tell Arthur something he doesn't believe.]
...well, you're making some messy unsupported assumptions about what coping and emotional honesty look like for someone you don't know, but the main conclusion is sound.
Everything from 'fact is' onward, I agree with completely. Will that suffice?
[ She certainly isn't going to pretend she's perfect, or that her reads are on the money 100% of the time. She's got some advantages on her side, but that doesn't make her perfect. The Koskela brothers are proof of that. ]
You offered a lot, [ it's a subtle sort of 'thank you' ] but you can't offer experience and knowing you for longer than five minutes; I explained it so you could see how I got to where I was going. Call it a 'field decision'.
[ That's what it is, after all. She certainly hadn't gotten a file folder and a few days to investigate. ]
If you ever want to talk to me again after this, maybe I'll know more then.
But that's what's relevant right now. More than sufficient. Thank you.
Give it a few weeks. Then we'll all have new problems.
Any preferences on the timeline? And, mm.
Arthur did start by asking if I'd come to break his nose, and it wasn't all sarcasm. So I'm not sure how safe he actually felt. Any thoughts you have on how to avoid making him feel unsafe again would be welcome.
[It isn't, really. It's just less raw than he's been with her until now. He went out of his way to affirm that he did want to talk to her again, not too far in the future - but cordial for a Shuos is cold for Earth, and he set the bar in a weird place.]
[ It's not something she's bothered by, nor does she see it as a stop sign to any further getting to know him; just a pause for now. In truth, 'cold' wasn't bad, really. Better than 'hot', anyway.
He walked in and told her he hit her inmate. It was going to be a little strained no matter what.]
Thank you for telling me. I do realize that's not something you had to do.
Better than he was. I need to...tell him some things John told me, that were leading to Edwin's worst misinterpretations. I think he'll be ready to talk to him again soon.
I just got lucky, scooping him up first. He's such a good kid.
Right after he came on board, we had a flood that changed people's ages. I was...I was turned into someone very young, who'd been hurt very badly. He'd only had about six weeks of anyone ever being kind to him, but he wrapped me up and gave it all back tenfold. He was so - ready, so hungry to learn it.
[He doesn't pry about the project - she's been deliberately vague, so it would be rude. He tells her the story, briefly but vividly, sipping occasionally until his water is gone.]
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I'd agree with you. But I think in this case, this is a matter of personal accountability: to someone you said you love and someone you called a friend. [ There's nothing in her voice or body language to suggest that she's calling those out specifically in doubt; she's just explaining her reasoning.] He might be an inmate, but I don't believe I have a place when it comes to that. At least not in this discussion.
[ Now for the hard part. ]
The way I see it, from what you, Arthur, and Edwin have said to me, is that both you and Arthur fell prey to the same mistake: you both were unaware of just how much the harm done to someone you love, by someone you love, could make you willing, unconscious or no, to harm someone else you love.
You can call it protection, or 'protectiveness', but I think rationally, honestly, while there are emotional concerns to be dealt with in all corners, Edwin needs as much protection from Arthur as Arthur needs from you. [ Which is to say, none at all. ] Both you and Arthur were trying to cope. And you both were trying to cope by being competent at a thing you feel confident in, instead of being emotionally honest with someone like you should be with family.
[ She doesn't point, because that's rude, but her gaze settles on him a little more distinctly. ]
Objections are 'what you did is unacceptable'. They're words. You 'needed' some sort of retribution. Just like Arthur. You can talk about what you are and what you do and how you work all you like. How it could have been worse this way or that way. Fact is, you both did something stupid and harmful to someone you care about when they thought they could talk to you safely even though they'd fucked up.
[ She folds her arms. ]
And I'd like you to tell him that so that he doesn't decide that his own judgment can never be trusted again instead of realizing this whole thing is a mess and no one was on their best game.
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He hears her out, as much as she wants to say, despite her insisting at the top that it isn't about Arthur being an inmate at all, like Jedao came to her because he just missed his psych team so much.
It doesn't matter. He's not here to litigate or exonerate anything. She's made her request. It's just that she's also made a few rather forced parallels, and he actually doesn't want to tell Arthur something he doesn't believe.]
...well, you're making some messy unsupported assumptions about what coping and emotional honesty look like for someone you don't know, but the main conclusion is sound.
Everything from 'fact is' onward, I agree with completely. Will that suffice?
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[ She certainly isn't going to pretend she's perfect, or that her reads are on the money 100% of the time. She's got some advantages on her side, but that doesn't make her perfect. The Koskela brothers are proof of that. ]
You offered a lot, [ it's a subtle sort of 'thank you' ] but you can't offer experience and knowing you for longer than five minutes; I explained it so you could see how I got to where I was going. Call it a 'field decision'.
[ That's what it is, after all. She certainly hadn't gotten a file folder and a few days to investigate. ]
If you ever want to talk to me again after this, maybe I'll know more then.
But that's what's relevant right now. More than sufficient. Thank you.
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Give it a few weeks. Then we'll all have new problems.
Any preferences on the timeline? And, mm.
Arthur did start by asking if I'd come to break his nose, and it wasn't all sarcasm. So I'm not sure how safe he actually felt. Any thoughts you have on how to avoid making him feel unsafe again would be welcome.
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Normally, I'd say 'communicators' but that might come off like you'd punch him if you were in person with him, which isn't a great vibe.
Maybe offer the decision up to him. Let him steer how, when, where.
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I'll keep that in mind.
Thank you for listening.
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He walked in and told her he hit her inmate. It was going to be a little strained no matter what.]
Thank you for telling me. I do realize that's not something you had to do.
[ A breath in. Then- ]
How's Edwin doing?
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Nobody would have made me. But yes I did.
[He did have to. Because.]
Better than he was. I need to...tell him some things John told me, that were leading to Edwin's worst misinterpretations. I think he'll be ready to talk to him again soon.
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I'm glad to hear that. I know he was upset about it.
[ He'll get the warmest smile she's given him since he mentioned hitting Arthur. ]
He's a really good kid. I'm sure you're a big part of that.
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I just got lucky, scooping him up first. He's such a good kid.
Right after he came on board, we had a flood that changed people's ages. I was...I was turned into someone very young, who'd been hurt very badly. He'd only had about six weeks of anyone ever being kind to him, but he wrapped me up and gave it all back tenfold. He was so - ready, so hungry to learn it.
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[ Her own face is pretty soft as she thinks of him. ]
Smart too. He cares a lot about doing the right thing.
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To be fair, I don't think most people even know we know one another.
We sort of... stumbled into working together on something.
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